100 things you may (or may not know) about yours truly:

1. I'm double jointed in my hands.
2. I live to LIE out.
3. I have lots of mirrors and I'm proud of it.
4. I enjoy painting.
5. One day I will make millions.
6. I wear flip-flops year round.
7. I wear my flip-flops until they break.
8. I am like a fish out of water.
9. I use $15.00 hairspray...and it's amazing stuff.
10. I can make my hair news reporter worthy with curlers.
11. I drink anything but gin.
12. I don't like pizza.
13. I enjoy the smell of gasoline (except that time I spilled it all over Bobby. Sorry.)
14. I wear more black than Goth kids. However, I'm not Goth.
15. Ultra skinny people freak me out.
16. I still sleep with a stuffed dog.
17. One day soon I will make it to Memphis to see my friend Matt's band play.
18. After working out I like to lie face down on the air vent.
19. I enjoy lying in cancer beds.
20. I despise hot tomatoes, corn, and lima beans
21. My favorite flowers are tulips.
22. I love the kids that I baby-sit for like they were my own.
23. 23 was my number when I played at Ole Miss.
24. I tend to get up right when my alarm goes off.
25. I get angry when I wake up 2 minutes before my alarm is set to go off.
26. I've had plastic surgery.
27. In fact I've had 6 surgeries all together not counting my wisdom teeth. (2 knee, 2 elbow, an appendectomy, and my boobs)
28. Socks and I don't get along.
29. I don't like the smell of powder fresh deo.
30. I tend to order the same things at restaurants.
31. I will drive my car until the day it dies.
32. I use a mixture of cheap and expensive make-up.
33. My sister got me the coolest Sephora kit for Christmas.
34. My cell phone is red.
35. I own 5 things from Tiffany's
36. I love getting the little Blue Box.
37. My Chanel Sunglasses are real.
38. I love getting pedicures
39. I skip class sometimes and don't think a thing about it.
40. Postsecret.com cracks me up
41. When I get bored I tend to highlight my hair.
42. I laugh every time Matt says that he's perfect.
43. Contrary to popular belief...I do like to read.
44. I love banana popsicles.
45. I screen my calls.
46. I make fun of stupid people.
47. I can write my name backwards in cursive but only with my left hand.
48. I sing Christmas carols in July.
49. Every Christmas season I drive down Memphis Ave. to see the tacky lights at least twice a week.
50. Sometimes I straighten my hair when it's completely wet.
51. I enjoy putting Elmer's school glue all over my hands, rubbing it in, waiting for it to dry, and then pealing it off.
52. I think it's repulsive when people drive around without shirts on.
53. I think the TV in my Living Room is from 1975.
54. My birthday is my favorite time of year!
55. I wish I took more pictures.
56. I think the name Macaroni-n-Cheese for a Crayola crayon is gay.
57. I've never owned a car that wasn't a standard.
58. I can't use certain laundry detergents because I break out in hives.
59. I have more clothes in my closet than I know what to do with.
60. I hate taking down Christmas trees.
61. I can get you out of most any situation.
62. I withhold information.
63. I can keep secrets until the day I die.
64. I tend to listen really well, but I give crappy advice.
65. I hate to journal.
66. I'm training for a triathlon in August.
67. I love winter because there are no bugs.
68. Bugs think I'm sweet because I get eaten alive in the summertime.
69. I'm afraid of dirty dishes.
70. I'd rather lick a toilet bowl clean than do yard work.
71. I think goat is a funny word.
72. I lose more bobby pins than any person I know.
73. I can write people out of my life faster than you can say what?
74. I have had the same toe ring since 7th grade. There's a permanent indention.
75. When I was little I thought Pearl Harbor was a drunken woman.
76. I enjoy sitting in the dark.
77. I made myself throw up once to see what it was like to be bulimic. It only happened once.
78. I love my new Mac.
79. I hate the smell of Bradford Pear Trees.
80. I'm ready to move out west.
81. I enjoy things with a straight edge. Squares are my favorite.
82. I hate the month of August because there aren't any holidays.
83. I don't think Disney is the happiest place on Earth.
84. I have burned every ex-bf's things except one. First loves will always be first loves.
85. I hate squirrels with a fiery passion. I would run them over and eat them with gravy if it were legal.
86. I think that if you own anything pink it just makes life a little better.
87. I was a vegetarian for 2 years.
88. IKEA=true love.
89. I love to sleep with the windows open when its 25 degrees outside. I curl up in my down comforter.
90. I hate that my nails won't grow long.
91. I'm addicted to Q-tips. It's pathetic.
92. Rubber Duky did always make bath time fun.
93. I rarely sneeze more than 2 times at a time.
94. I jumped off an 80-foot cliff when my boyfriend at the time wouldn't.
95. I used to snorkel in the bathtub when I was little.
96. One day I will be a beer pong champion like KG.
97. I've slacked more this semester than ever.
98. Placement of keys on a keyboard baffles me.
99. I've purposely super glued my fingers together…man was I an idiot.
100. Lastly, I can text like it's my job.

To Each Man His Own:

That's it. I'm out. I'm frustrated and tired with the whole situation. I'm to the point of being the non-caring friend. Which, if you think about it, isn't a "friend" at all I suppose. But I am a friend, just the kind that wants to gouge her eyeballs out every time someone mentions any part of this situation. Seriously though, what does it mean to be a friend? Am I supposed to sit back and guide my friend's through a train wreck? Am I supposed to stand firm in my beliefs and let it all out? Am I supposed to sit there in the middle and take it up the ass from both sides? Or do I say nothing at all and keep the peace?

Well, cheers to sticky situations. They bring out the best and worst in people. You get to find your friend's strongest point and your other friend's weakest point. I've come to the realization that whatever I do or say isn't going to change anyone's mind or point for that matter. Is there really anything else that I can do if no one is going to listen?

The older I get the more I recognize how much the world is stuck in its ways. We aren't programmed to change. Sometimes we don't see why people seem to care so much about our lives. The devil on our shoulder seems to get the best of us most days. As people, we do as we please. A small amount of satisfaction is granted when we see that we are right. But when is being right not going to be enough?

So, here are to you my friends. I wish you nothing but happiness but these bitter diatribes are killing me. I want the best for all of you. So, my last piece of advice I'm giving is this: "and this too shall pass."

Alexis and Jessica, I wish you nothing but strength to stand tall in your beliefs. Kristin, I wish you nothing but words to help you say what you want to say. And Sean S., I wish you nothing but a conscience to know right from wrong. I hope you know that I say these things with the deepest sincerity. I love each and every one of you. Each of you makes my heart warm and soul complete so I'll still be standing here if things come crashing down.

Im in Prague....

so im in prague...having so much fun!!! ill blog and post pictures later!!!

When is it ok to not be ok?

So, I've basically had the worst weekend in my entire life. I think both my parents were fed lead based paint chips as children because they went off the deep-end this weekend. Which is fine. Many of you may think that I'm a horrible person. I have no problem writing people out of my life. To me, it's like a fresh start. A clean slate if you may. I seem to have turned the corner and gone back to my cynical ways. i blame my parents. and honestly i'm really ok with that.

Does anyone out there think that it's possible to change someone who doesnt want to change? Who doesnt think that he or she has a problem. I've come to the realization that you can't teach an old dog new tricks. i wish there was a way to force someone to get help. (and im sure drugging someone and dragging them in isnt an option.)

ok new topic...guilt trips. they dont work on me. dont try. im totally unsympathetic to anyones minute problems. Don't tell me you love me and that you would bend over backwards for me...and expect to find my soft spot. I'm heartless and honestly i probably dont trust you in the first place. i have issues and im willing to admit to it. but heres the catch, what if you realize where your problems stem from and those persons arent willing to accept that fact? what now? its a downward spiral into a shallow grave.

im down and out and basically confused these days. i apparently have serious trust issues now. ive been burned more than once. one time is too many. which is why writing a person out of my life takes no effort. one minute youre in and one minute youre out. its that easy. unless of course i bring you back in so i can steal your kidneys and reap the benefits from selling them on the blackmarket.

i know there is something wrong with me now....my body physically hurts. i have no motivation whatsoever. i have been forced into a state of depression maybe? i dont know. all i know is that i stopped caring a long time ago.